Osirisale

You sentenced my heart to die For the crime of trusting you too deeply For not knowing or not believing You could ever do me so heinously wrong What a dire curse you have cast upon my face To wake up in the morning and mourn my fate Disastrous mess of hate flying every which way Cursing the moment my smiles went away I know you have a guilty conscience But is it better or worse to know it’s wrong And act on selfish desires regardless And let yourself face the consequences? You burn bridges down and raise your walls up high You watch it burn and mask a smile You’ll regret it later, so you bask in its heat for the moment Waiting

I wish you could see yourself through my eyes How your eyes sparkle like a twinkling sunrise How they dance around like raindrops in a rainbow haze Falling, falling, falling into my gaze I wish you could see yourself through my eyes How you dance and play so happily when you’re feelin’ alright How you bring light to my darkened world Shining, shining, shining so far above this lonely wasteland, so cold You are my one and only love You’re the one I was dreaming of You’re beautiful and wonderful You make me finally feel whole Perfect moments with a beautiful soul We still can talk for hours on end Said it all before b

You say you want to marry me But is it all a fantasy An idea that you love, not an act Decisiveness, you lack My heart is mine to keep If you find yourself too weak To accept the heart that’s offered to you I only give the best to you Make up your mind Because my heart is still mine I will protect it from harm So don’t treat it wrong Make up your mind Because my heart is still mine I will protect it from harm So don’t treat it wrong You fear your heart will waiver If so, do us both a favor And waiver now before I waste my time And get caught up in silly lines If you don’t want me by your side forever Let’s j

All the sacrifices I made for you Forsook my needs for yours Forsook my home to build a life together Forsook my medications to keep you afloat I gave the shirt from my back when it was asked for Spent nearly every cent on rent Struggled endlessly on my own, focusing on your needs My God, how can you justify yourself to me? When you forsook me for another To bring light to his dark eyes While I fell apart quietly at home How do you justify yourself to me? How can you call it all inevitability? As if breaking me again was just in the cards If this is how your mind works I fear My future isn’t as happy as I’d like it to be Here